what am i doing here
place that holds something for me
place that holds
this attainment of blessing
and praise
for the unworthy
for the undeserving
[me]
im glad for our valiant
much achieved
much accomplished
in this place that holds something for me
in this place i chose what to hold and see
in this place im leaving, and not coming back
with lessons learned
and pockets too full
and mixed thoughts
and home with tables set
mom's tears
dad's hugs
sisters on looking, looking down and gazing up
and already some choose what manner of celebration
will memorialize their years of apathy here
i weep for those who only saw this place
as a hindrance for fleshly satisfaction
or a reason for it
and i can only tell them before i walk off
i love them and miss them and
i finally realize that no person is replaceable
and in this place
i discard my disguise

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