monday and no school today. i fell asleep watching alaskian crab fishing- made me think about when jesus called his disciples. about peter who knew only fishing. and how he must have laughed when Jesus told him to let down his net in the middle of the day, when the fish were all hiding at the bottom.

i love how jesus asks us to do things that dont make much sense so he can show us how powerful He is.

i feel really dry, i know its because im slipping up on spending time in the word. and my half hearted prayers. i prayed with joe last night, from my heart and it was so good, and i wonder if i had the same kind of relationship with a friend here on earth as i do with Jesus, could i even call that person a friend. would i really know them? i could find out a lot about that person from other people who spend time with her, and maybe i could even be mistaken as one of her close friends because i hang out so much with her friends. but if i took all those other people away, and it was just me and her, what would i say? what would we talk about? id have a lot of head knowledge but i couldnt speak from experience. i wouldnt know her voice.

through all these years of spending time with people who know Jesus so intimetly and learning so much from them, i think what im finally realizing is that i dont know very much of him personally. ive had tastes of him in worship and amazing experiences when hes forgiven me, and loved me. but all this head-knowledge wont be anything more than a lot of facts when it comes to knowing him. and as we sing so often on sunday mornings:

"the greatest thing, in all my life is knowing you...i want to know you more, i want to know you more"

<< >>