if i had you here
to talk this out
friend, if i could look at you
i wouldn't speak
this fear is why i don't call
and why
when i do
i feel the shallowness of the words
which i don't live out (between us) that if i missed, i'd come
hit me harder and heavier than the weight
of this world
and all else that exists
all at one moment
on that part of your inside that aches with longing
when you're alone.
you are the one person that i thought i could
never
never
never
lose this intimate friendship with
and now
you are the one person
i can't call
i let myself down
everytime i think of it
so its easier to pretend like you are still away.

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