i dont know how to take this. i feel pointless today-i made no affect, accomplished nothing, learned little, period...to cure boredom: do absolutely nothing for so long you'll grow sick of it and you'll find something anything to do so as not to be bored. and so goes the cure of many of my problems...sharon's downstairs crying. she's so frustrated. the 'intellectuals' who make up her classes dont care what she has to say. they use profanity repeatedly and she asks them to stop. they continue. she has so much joy from her relationship with God it shows right through her and she smiles so much...they harass her for that smile daily. she loves these kids. and they have their own religions and the two Christians in her class have their own problems-one is horribly bitter at the world, the other tries desperately to fit in any way he can. and i went over to sit with them at lunch today-i went over so pridefully because they think they are smarter than anyone at this school-but i went over thinking i was smarter, maybe i am, probably im not. but regardless i went over judging them harshly, sitting down ready to prove my intellect and disprove their ideas. and because of this attitude, and because i didnt come to them in love, i was defeated before i sat down. i learned i cant do anything without love.

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up" (Galatians 6:9).

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